The light at the end of the tunnel

When something bad happens, there are certain stages of grief that you go through in order to deal with it. When it rains, sometimes it pours and sometimes the soil is so badly soaked that new blooms are drowning beneath the dirt. As the days pass and the sun comes out, the soil slowly dries and the blooms are able to poke through and eventually bring little tiny leaves on the surface. Whenever life brings you down, you just gotta take it one step at a time and slowly pick yourself out of the dirt, establish yourself on your own two feet and start taking the essential steps towards healing.

Is it easy? No very likely not. Is it rewarding when you finally reach that point of walking? Yes, so rewarding.

I started journaling (on like an actual notebook) and writing down goals and things I want to accomplish, places I want to go to, things I want to do. I guess the biggest luxury about being on your own is that you get to do life exactly how you want to, without having to worry about anyone else and how they might perceive it. I kind of missed that part of myself and the independence I would exude.

Social media pressures were kind of eating me alive and I think a part of me found validation in posting and I'm kind of glad I came to this realization in recent weeks. I am starting to become a bit more private and making sure that I'm happy before I post a smiling picture where I pretend to be happy.

I've been unhappy for some time now and it's nice to find the happiness within. To really, truly look within and come to the realization that I don't need anyone to give me everything that I can give myself. It's nice to stop asking for validation and reassurance and to give it to myself.

At the end of the day, you're the only one capable of doing all of the amazing things you put your mind to. When you're kicked to the ground and left on your own, it is your own self that picks you up. No one else. So, if you're gonna take anything from this post, take this: make sure to spend some extra time to take care of the person you are. Your health, your mental state, your physical wellness. You are the only one who can make anything better. Give yourself a little extra love, you deserve it.