Sunshine state of mind

I feel like a lot of what I've been writing lately has had a more negative spin and I guess I really do get most of my inspiration when I'm in a bad head space. Struggling artist or whatever. However, on a more positive note, this morning I pulled my journal out to get some thoughts on paper and I came to notice that I hadn't written anything in it in over a week (which is pretty rare unless I'm travelling). This served as such a positive reinforcement because for the last week or so, I have been so busy with plans and seeing friends and doing things and living life, that I have not felt a need or had the time to really sulk in my emotions and that's been fricken great.

Today served as a nice reminder that bad times come and go just like everything else in life and eventually, you will reach a light at the end of the tunnel.

I have a lot of exciting things coming up in the next few weeks with the most immediate one being my dad's birthday later on this week and me driving home on Thursday to surprise him. I get a super long weekend this weekend so I'm excited to be home and see friends and hangout with my family. I feel like I don't see them enough and that has been in the back of my head for a while. I'm coming up on three years of living in Toronto and lately, I have a new appreciation for the city which is so unlike my previous posts where I had reached a low of hating everything around me, including the place I lived. Things are looking up.

I've been trying to be more present, read more, learn more, live through each moment fully. It's been sort of nice to get to know that part of myself again and do more of the things that I used to love. Fresh sheets and a good movie, days out in the sun at the zoo with good people, drinks on a patio and endless laughs. I've really been enjoying the moment lately.

If you're still reading this, I really do hope you take some time to get to know yourself at your deepest core. I know it may just sound cliche but I know you're probably not diving in deep enough. When was the last time you did something that causes you to smile to yourself? Be your own sunshine state of mind.

Love u, take care of yourselves :) xo