Slow process to success

I hate waiting. It drives me insane. I hate waiting in lines, I hate waiting in traffic, and I hate waiting for online orders to ship. I hate waiting for a text back, I hate waiting for an application to process, and most importantly, I hate the process of waiting for my future to be put into place.

I am the type of person that when I get an idea, especially if it is a big one, I want it to happen as soon as possible. I will put the work towards it, but I want it to be done like five minutes ago. I am a difficult individual in that I have a bunch of ideas and a lot of plans of action prepared in my head in order to make things happen as soon as possible. What I cannot beat however, is the fact that sometimes things do take time and there are no shortcuts to it. I have been finding it super hard to accept this fact. I have thought about occupying this waiting time with new ideas and new projects, but every night I cross off a day in the calendar. A day closer to achieving that end goal I have in mind. I find this end goal constantly eating away at me and I always want to work towards it despite not always having the ability to do so.

It is hard waiting, having patience and letting time pass by knowing that everyday you get a day older. It feels like a waste of time despite it being part of the process and the way that life works. While it is hard to say out loud and admit this fact to yourself, you really cannot beat time.

And yet, you really wish you could sometimes.