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Hiya friends! Happy New Year! I hope the new year brings you all more blessings, better health and an abundance of happiness throughout.

I'm very superstitious and I do believe that the way in which you start your year, will be the way the year will go... for the most part. I usually put some thought into this and a few days before the new year, I will make some decisions about what I want to keep in my life, and what I want to discard of in the new year. I have a lot of personal goals for the year and I truly am super excited about what is to come.

One of my bigger goals is to become a little bit more social. I know a lot of you who know me will think "wow Cez, more social than you already are???". Yes. Last year I took a break from a lot of things that were harming me at the time, but this year, I want to make more conscious but social improvements to everything I put a stop to last year. Let me dive into that a little deeper.

Last year I took a step back from the dating scene. I quite frankly didn't go out with anyone really since like June. I met some guys during my trip in October but nothing that I can say I brought back home with me. This was important to me because I had gotten a bit lost in the way in which I was perceiving dating and it was becoming toxic to me. I am happy I did that because I invested so much time into myself, the things I enjoy doing, and the people I love.

I think I have come full circle with that and I think I am ready to get back out there to some degree. This is where the social aspect comes in. I feel like the pandemic especially has made me a bit anti-social despite most people around me not noticing that change in me, because I still see a lot of friends and am generally actively having plans. However, I don't really get out there for the purpose of socializing with new people, making new connections, trying a new thing or meeting someone for the purpose of dating. If I am dating, it will be prompted by a dating app and I kind of hate that. I love meeting people organically and I don't even remember the last time I was in a place where I met a guy and he asked for my number. It's probably been years simply because I haven't put myself in that position to be approached.

This socializing thing doesn't just stop at dating though. I feel like in general, the only real time I meet people is when I travel. Other than that, for some reason, I am never really meeting new friends. I go out with my already existing friends, I rarely go outside of our already established circle, and while we are not at all against making friends, that generally just does not happen. I want to put myself more out there this year and bring myself out of that already established comfort zone. Maybe join some sort of a class, club, or go places on my own more.

That being said, I also want to make a more conscious choice as to when I do things. I find myself often waiting to partake in any one activity only on the weekends because I can sleep in the next day and will generally not do much during the week. I hate the concept of "living for the weekend" and yet I catch myself doing that exact thing. I guess my problem with escaping the mundane is also partially attributed to the fact that I do love having a routine and if I start "living" vicariously outside of the weekend, that has the potential of throwing my routine off track. All in all, I can't win.

The cool thing is that you are in charge of whatever you choose to do with your year. Whether you are like me and want to try to be more social or whatever else you're interested in, you have that power to make the changes necessary to reach your goal. The year has only just started and there is so much time ahead of you to make it all happen.

I wish you all a very happy new year and I hope you achieve everything you set your mind to. I look forward to everything I will create on here this year and sharing my work with you all.

As always, thanks for coming to my Cez talk.