Not your cup of tea

I have a difficult personality because I constantly have new ideas and engage in new projects and sometimes, I do not finish one thing before I start another. I have friends that have stuck around for many years, and I also had friends that got fed up with my way of being and decided to leave my life. I usually do not think twice about the people that leave because I know how difficult I can be and that I cannot be everyone's cup of tea.

That being said, I have not tried to change. I have always put myself first despite the fact that I am a giving person and I try to satisfy all the people in my life on an equal level. I have not changed because despite my difficult personality, there are people in my life that stayed. If they stayed, it must be a good thing right?

I have people in my life that praise me for my character and my way of being. A lot of people see me as somebody who is really strong and has the ability to conquer the world. I often get caught up in the praise and work myself to exhaustion because I think that I can do anything. I think that right about now I feel it more than ever.

Because of my drive, my bold personality, and my ambition, a lot of people dislike me. A lot of people see me as a 'try-hard'. Frankly enough, I do try hard. But not for the praise and not so that I can brag about it. Everything I do, I do it for myself. I very rarely get caught up in the negativity that is showcased by those who do not like me. Like I said, I cannot be everyone's cup of tea.

I will never accept mediocrity just because someone calls me a 'try-hard'. If anything, I will try hard to make it above the criticisms of those who wish were in my place. I will rise above the comments, the judgments, and the mean remarks. Why? Because at stake is my own happiness and self-fulfillment. Nobody can take that away from me.

A difficult personality might just mean someone is working on carving a niche for themselves. Maybe they are just trying to find themselves in the process. Their purpose.

The people in my life are there for a reason. Those who left, left for a reason.

You cannot be everyone's cup of tea