Just give it time

What does time really mean in the grand scheme of things? I guess that's a very abstract question to ask since it can mean so many things depending on the situation.

What does time mean in a relationship that lasted years if it all came to an end despite the amount of time spent together?

Does that time really mean anything if you didn't end up continuing your lives together?

What does time mean if the latter part of a relationship was based on a lie because one partner knew the truth and the other didn't?

Are you wasting time or does it mean that you are saving time if it ends sooner rather than later?

What does time mean when a friendship of many years ceases to exist because of some dumb reason?

What does that time in between mean from where the friendship ended to where it was picked back up again because people grow up and get over things?

What does time mean when you are trying to work towards bringing that same friendship to the level of trust and love that was created long ago but are no longer?

What does time mean when you still have time to fix it all?

What does time mean when you are running out of time?

I'm trying to give myself grace for the lost and wasted time because I know that time in between gave me the opportunity to grow and learn from my mistakes. I know that sometimes, when you force something to happen prematurely, it has the opportunity to go terribly before it ever goes well. So maybe, time is what is needed. Time to heal, try, work on what I ultimately desire.

It's a funny realization that time can hurt just as much as it can heal and time can take away just as much as it can give and we have to somehow, navigate all of that and find a way to make time work in our favour.