It's raining

As the droplets of water are hitting these giant floor-to-ceiling windows, I see the flaws of yesterday being washed away with it. A clean slate as they say.

I've been having a couple of tough weeks. I feel mentally drained by the work I devote myself to, the projects I have taken on without any clear indication as to how they will affect me and drain me of my energy.

A little while ago, I read something that essentially said to visualize showers as being able to wash away every worry, struggle and frustration that you had encountered through your day. This week was a busy one. Not bad, but busy. At the end of every day, I stepped in the shower and I let the water just wash over me. A few minutes in, I would begin lathering. I tried to visualize washing the day away by taking deep breaths and feeling as if with every drop of water, the layer of frustration is being washed away.

I would walk out of the shower feeling refreshed. I would feel as if a giant weight had been lifted off my shoulders. It might have been a placebo effect but in those moments, it felt good regardless so I didn't question the root of the feeling.

This lockdown has been coming down hard on me lately and I am trying to cope. I guess we're all looking for our own ways to feel better.