Happy powder

All it takes is one small inconvenience to throw us off-track. I had a tough week I won't even lie. I would consider myself to generally be someone who is positive, rational and it usually takes quite a bit before I declare myself to be annoyed or sad/upset and the whole rest of it. This week however, has tested my patience in all sorts of ways. From the emotional to the mental, from work to personal relationships. I feel drained.

I hate saying that because it's only been about a month since I have gotten back into a routine and going to work regularly. I guess in some ways it is just a temporary feeling that might pass by the time next week begins. Right now though, I could really use some time off. Good thing it's Friday I guess.

I have struggled all week to find something I want to write about because all of that frustration has been fogging my thinking. I guess it is okay to have off-weeks, I mean, they can't all just be good. Shit happens right?

I've had very strange interactions all week and various things have got me thinking. Today for some reason, on my drive to work, I was thinking about whether my future children should be taught Romanian or not. Don't ask why that is even on my brain, just a thought.

In some ways, the more I think about it, I think that the absence of being able to hangout with friends and exchange ideas with people in real time, in person, is sort of what is getting to me. I have always been a people person and love the in-person interaction. The inability to do that is starting to get to me. I used to always be out, meeting people and going places. Overhearing conversations, making friends and asking questions.

I think about the weekend getaways and going places on foot. I guess that all of these experiences are in some way an amalgamation of the happy powder that I desire to have.

I don't like to think of the glass half empty part but in some ways, there is a void I aim to fill and I just can't and I guess that some of that frustration is starting to get to me.

I guess I might be rambling... You know what I mean though..