Gloomy days

This weekend has been absent of peace of mind and I have been wanting to write for a few days now. I keep sitting down with the intention to write and somehow, something puts me off. Here is another attempt at getting some thoughts on record.

This weekend has been gloomy both from a physical weather standpoint and I guess mentally and emotionally. I rarely tend to get down about stuff but the past few days seemed to have been one thing after the other. I have been feeling it weighing heavy on my shoulders. I have been thinking about a lot of things and I am unsure of how to even put it into words. Ever felt overwhelmed by a million thoughts? Have you had someone ask 'what's wrong?' and you know something is wrong but somehow you cannot articulate those feelings? That's about how I feel.

I have been thinking about the past few months and that more than half of the year is over and yet I feel like I stood still. I have been thinking about the progress others have made while I feel like I have done nothing. I know that isn't true but it truly feels that way sometimes. I also don't like comparisons but they simultaneously keep you accountable.

It's raining and I want to pick up a book and drown my thoughts in the plot of someone else's life. Does that even help when you know you probably should just tackle your own issues? Perhaps sleep on it.

For reference point, I keep on stopping and looking out the window. It's hard to write when you don't really know what you want to divulge. I guess my thoughts are just as cloudy as the weather.