Feels

Feelings are weird am I right?

One day you feel free, at ease, with nothing to worry about.

The next day you feel like you are drowning, stressed, anxious.

A different day you might feel butterflies in your stomach all day long.

And this, could literally happen over the course of three days.

Trust me it can. I experienced it myself. The crazy thing is, what do you do when you feel so much that you cannot explain it? As if you need to let it all out but do not know how. What do you do then? You cannot just tell a friend. No. They were not there. They do not know exactly what you saw, heard, interpreted and felt in that moment you are trying so hard to piece back together for them. It just is not the same.

Do you write it all down? But even that is not all it is made up to be. Do you sing a song about it? And what if people get it wrong?

Feelings are weird. You one day feel nothing and then everything all at once. How do you explain that? Love? Anger? Pain? Loss? Happiness? Pure despair?

How can you explain it all?

And yet, as I am writing this, I keep telling myself that perhaps this form of journaling is the better of ways to express. Simultaneously, I do not feel like I am doing my thoughts justice. It is as if when you try to put it into words, there are not enough words to explain it - to hold said emotion on the highest pedestal.

Feelings are weird