A good kind of cry

The other night I cried for the first time in a really long time. I generally do not cry very much as I usually think with my brain more than my heart. Thinking more with your brain allows you to be able to distinguish the effects of crying and usually deters it from happening. The other night I cried. I cried with my heart.

It was an irrational type of cry after I took part in a conversation that went way over my head and it frustrated me. I assumed the worst and overthought the whole situation. It is very common to do so because the heat of the moment gets the worst out of everyone.

Before I could have time to rationally think through the situation, I felt tears streaming down my face. I fought them back quickly and kept telling myself "mama ain't raise no b....". I could not stop.

Here's the thing.. I totally had absolutely zero reason to cry. The conversation was not at all negative, it was just a reality check. It was not supposed to hurt me by any means, but I, the over thinking giant that I am, of course, I took it the wrong way.

And so I cried. I cried for a couple a seconds, followed by a couple of minutes.

I took a break, tried to think, which reminded me of the incident all over again.

And so I cried again.

I cried because I felt the need to cry.

I cried myself to sleep.

The thing is, this is not supposed to be a sad thing or upset anyone. Sometimes it is healthy to have a crying session. It allows for release.

The following day, I was scrolling through instagram and stumbled across a post. It read:

"Crying has a natural analgesic that stimulates the production of endorphins, our body's natural pain killer and 'feel good' hormones"

Interestingly enough, I was feeling better.

I guess my point is that you should cry if you feel the need to. I personally do not ever do it in public (that is related to the power I try to showcase on the exterior) but by no means does it ever mean that I do not ever cry.

Cry.