Spontaneity: A guide to healing

When something happens that hurts your feelings or breaks you down, you have a way to cope. We all do. Some people cry, others preoccupy their time with things that will take their mind off the matter, others abuse substances, and so on. We all know a way to deal with whatever had gone wrong in our lives.

I personally become spontaneous. To some extent it may be called running away from the issue, but I see it as a breakthrough from a thing that is now part of the past. Say a relationship ends and I am upset over it. I will drive off to my favourite city in order to heal. See some old friends, eat different food, see new scenery, get some retail therapy in. I do not like to mope over it. I begin the process of bettering myself right away.

(I totally did that like two years ago and it was awesome)

Why mope? Sometimes it is true that great things fall apart just so that better things can come together. Work on you, re-gaining your happiness, and you will see that it is never the end of the world. No matter how bad things get, the sun will always rise again. No matter how things get, be grateful for your strength, health, and ambition to keep going.

Why mope? Become spontaneous instead. A good thing in your life just came to an end?

Okay. Accept it. You do not have to fully come to terms with it right away. Think of a place you feel good at. Think of a place you want to go to.

Fill up your gas tank.

Buy a train or plane ticket.

Go.

There is no better time than right now to start healing.

Learn something, change your vision, become wiser.

You are fine.

Do not let anyone take your happiness away from you.

Your happiness depends on no one but yourself.

Do not get caught up

I have a saying that I use rather often. I tell myself quite frequently "do not get caught up". I use it for a lot of things:

Do not get caught up with drama.

Do not get caught up with feelings.

Do not get caught up with people.

Do not get caught up with a situation.

Do not get caught up with your own thoughts.

The moment you get caught up in any of those things, you lose focus. You lose sense of yourself and what your goals are.

T'was the day after Christmas

I am wildly thinking about the day when I will put forth my own traditions, in my own house, with my own someone. The smell of my favourite dishes being served to loved ones and friends, sweet music playing in the background. Laughter and love.

I am not sure when that will be, nor am I in a rush to get it, but I can't lie about having a burning desire to have it all one day. I woke up with an emptiness of sorts inside of me. I don't know how to explain it or justify something that almost feels irrational. What is it that I want? It is often the very things I hate to say out loud that would bring me the most joy.

I want something that people write about and even more than that, I want something that no one has ever even thought of writing about yet. I want something so good that no words can describe the grandeur of it all. I want to feel elation in its truest form. In some ways I feel like only ordinary things have gotten that description so far, and I want far beyond that. I want something to write books about; to fill pages with words that only my deepest desires can create -- to have an experience worthy of being written about. I wonder if these books I am reading are the exact product of someone's mind on fire, filled with the very adrenaline of experiences turned into words on a piece of paper.

I wonder what it feels like to be completely taken by surprise, to be made feel extraordinary. To feel no gaps or as if instructions need to be given out.

I digress..

merry always happy everyone .. more to come in the near future.