Wasteful

I keep on thinking I lack the energy,

The time and patience to really try.

Although I might see things quite clearly,

I do quite feel I live a lie.

The energy is off and things keep on collapsing,

The things that I want most make me quite frantic.

I long for a realization,

A way to end this cycle.

Let down after let down,

We become most real when drunk.

I share with you my love,

And you’d rather play dumb.

As if I’m not here, as if I don’t exist,

You play with something meaningful,

You lead me to an abyss.

A never ending story is what’s in store for us,

I hope I’m there to see how it all plays out.

I don’t want to give it all up,

No, not just yet.

I still believe in this, that we can make amends.

Who are we really

Who are we really,

When all we know is this.

We know the happiness and pain,

The things that just exist.

Who are we meant to be,

This world is so unclear.

Somehow you have to live it,

I wonder if it’s near.

The happiness outside the pain,

The joy in the disaster.

The distance that we have created,

Everything’s much faster.

I want to stop the world and see,

Is this meant for me?

The crazy and the wild,

The reality of being free.

You and I know there’s so much more to this,

A kiss of sin, I can’t resist.

A world away, I never thought,

It would all come down like that.

With you

Your kiss is such a thrill,

I love to soak in it.

Your arms around me,

They’re such a mystery.

How could something so mundane

Put me in such euphoria?

I linger in your touch,

Slide my fingers in between yours.

Our palms touch and I want more.

A chill runs down my spine,

You come a little closer.

And just like that,

You show me that it’s worth it.

The nights we stay up talking,

About our hopes and dreams,

The days I spend wondering,

Could this even be real?

To feel so good and whole,

I cannot comprehend,

To love ever so truly,

My heart is so content.