Wasteful

I keep on thinking I lack the energy,

The time and patience to really try.

Although I might see things quite clearly,

I do quite feel I live a lie.

The energy is off and things keep on collapsing,

The things that I want most make me quite frantic.

I long for a realization,

A way to end this cycle.

Let down after let down,

We become most real when drunk.

I share with you my love,

And you’d rather play dumb.

As if I’m not here, as if I don’t exist,

You play with something meaningful,

You lead me to an abyss.

A never ending story is what’s in store for us,

I hope I’m there to see how it all plays out.

I don’t want to give it all up,

No, not just yet.

I still believe in this, that we can make amends.