Pura vida

I often find myself day-dreaming about all of the life I still have yet to live. I have been fortunate enough to live a very full life to date and that part sits pretty in my brain. That being said, I still have so much more that I want to do and see and experience.

I was doing some research the other day for a trip that I intend to take later on this year to Central America. Specifically, I really want to spend a few days in Costa Rica. I'm not sure if any of you have ever felt this way before or if it's a silly thought to have in general, but, have you ever wanted to avoid a place simply because you know that its beauty will ultimately break your heart?

I feel that way about Costa Rica. I know a handful of people who have been there and I swear they come back changed. That "pura vida" lifestyle is really just so endearing to me. I am afraid though that I will love it so much to the point that my heart will just yearn to return over and over. Not that it's a bad thing, but it's like that long distance relationship where you yearn to see your significant other so bad, that your day-to-day without them feels meaningless. Okay that sounds dramatic but you know what I mean? There are places in the world that are this beautiful and people live life there everyday. How are you supposed to return to the banalities of your day-to-day when you know something like that exists and you have now experienced it?

There are a few places I feel that way about already and every single time I come across a tiktok or a picture of those places, I fully turn my memory back to what my life was like when I was there. Barcelona, Faro, Amsterdam, New York City to name a few. They're those special kind of places where life just stops for the few days you are there and you just feel everything all at once. I still feel that way about Toronto too. Particularly, on those summer days when you lay on a blanket under the sun in Trinity Bellwoods, or those rooftop drinks while you can hear the city below you. The baseball games and street dogs at the end of a night, and the beach days where you feel the city come together to enjoy life under the sun. I too live in one of those special places.

As I sit here looking out at the rainy day, I can't help but feel my heart get excited for the sunny days in the city. The friends, concerts and festivals. I really am grateful for this life I am so lucky to live.

I watched a video not too long ago where a girl was simply sharing her gratitude for the mundane. The toast she got to eat in the morning, the couch in her apartment where she drank her coffee. The fact she even was fortunate enough to have a couch and an apartment and the peace and quiet of living on her own.

I smile because I too have so much to show gratitude towards.

Thank you for reading my words and as always, thanks for coming to my Cez talk xo.