Unfinished thoughts

Yell at me, do anything

But don’t leave me hanging.

Don’t give me that silent treatment, that I keep on getting.

Be real with me, communicate.

Stop hiding behind a mask.

A touch of sin is all I ask.

Everyone is going through something

Not too long ago I had a sort of revelation. It was of mild importance but it really got to me. I do not generally share much about myself with the public despite being a very open person. Sometimes it is about etiquette and knowing when to say what.

But stuff happens and lately a lot of news have come to my attention. People I know. People I generally relate to. They all look happy and as if their life is perfectly content. They all have those smiling instagram pictures and put on a facade on social media.

And yet, somehow, a lot of these people are miserable.

Maybe they hate their job. Maybe they are having trouble at home. Maybe their relationship is no longer working. Yet, they all make it seem like those things are not happening. They still post pictures with their significant other captioning it "I love my boo" right after they had gotten in a really nasty argument. Or they still show off their expensive clothing on social media, despite being thousands of dollars in debt.

While I do not condone it, it is something that happens. Maybe they post out of fear of being judged or maybe because social media status really means something to them. But that is not the point.

The point is, everyone is going through something. Everyone is fighting some sort of battle. It may be as insignificant as not wanting to admit to yourself that your life is not perfect, and as serious as well...other things. We never really know what someone is going through unless we ask. And then when we do, and find out what has actually been going on, we think boy, was I ever fooled?

We have gotten real good at hiding behind our phones and computer screens and showing one thing when in fact we feel another. And quite frankly, that is scary. That this fake happiness has become a chameleon in our own lives. That we hide behind the truth.

It is a shame because there are people out there who really need someone to talk to but hide behind a fake state of euphoria. How can we help someone if we do not know what they are in fact going through?

I guess it really is just food for thought.

Here and There

Well, I guess I'm here now writing about my life here and there. I guess I have been wanting to do this for a really long time and I never really knew how much I needed it. I was never able to stay committed to a diary. I found it to be childish and not fully encompassing of what would go on through my head. It's hard to write down thoughts. You lose so many of them in the process of putting them on paper. Typing is faster so I guess that's what brought me here. Why not have fun with it while I'm here right?

This blog used to have a lot more posts that I have now sent back to drafts. I wanted to start fresh and update any of my old posts. I have been thinking about buying this domain and making it public for so long. I guess a part of me felt insecure. Insecure about the content not being good enough, about me creating something that was not up to standards. I have been keeping this private for nearly two years.

I am good enough and my writing is actually pretty sweet. I want you all to experience it, criticize it and feel what I feel. I hope that once you are here, you are here to stay.

So welcome! I'm someone who has lots to talk about, lots of ideas and thoughts and emotions and all that is in between. I'm looking forward to creating and learning about myself in the process.