Apart

We had a good run darling,

You’ll stay in my heart.

I’m not sure I’ll want to,

I’ll likely fall apart.

I’m not sure I know myself,

The things that I want.

All that I do know,

I want to restart.

From the very beginning,

We were apart.

Now more than ever,

You are my counterpart.

We had a good run darling,

I know it’s not smart.

But I really do want you,

Please stay in my heart.

I am not done

I feel all kinds of things,

On all different levels.

How do I explain

What gave me this tremble?

You boil my blood

And fire me up

You kiss me so good,

Oh what a rush.

Adrenaline kicks,

You step on the gas.

The beat of my heart,

...pause and repeat.

Stay

I wrap my arms around you and breathe you in.

Fuck I missed you.

It gets worse every time you leave,

And yet I can’t seem to stop welcoming you back in my life.

As if you never left.

As if you didn’t hurt me.

I never ask you how you are anymore,

It hurts.

I don’t want to know what you do apart from me.

When I can’t hold you.

When I can’t touch you.

I take you in while you are present.

Although it hurts, it’s necessary.

My every thought wishes you’d stay.

Even if just for the night.

I’m sick of letting you go.

Be mine.